Reflection on nothing. (practically)

I have this feeling, a feeling of emptiness. I don’t know if I’m just having this feeling because I’m on my period this week, or If I’m really realizing something here…

I do love being here at my Dad’s house. I think it was a good choice to make, to take myself out of that that environment that wasn’t good for me and to stress over. It’s been about 2 months now since I’ve been here. And I guess I’m just getting that feeling of loneliness again. I mean I always used to have these feelings while living with my mom, but I don’t know why I feel this way. I like being on my own most of the time. I like having my own private peaceful time, being able to get things done when I want to. And over here I have that time to myself a lot more.

Yeah, it’s kind of bad, but I like being on my own, although I still don’t understand myself. I don’t know why I have this feeling of loneliness and emptiness when I like the peace and quite.

Maybe it isn’t that I’m just feeling crazy right now, but that I really just miss all of my friends, my school, and being apart of that previous community. Even though I’ve made many new friends over here and gotten used to everything practically, I still don’t know everyone yet, and don’t know my way around here too well.

This isn’t something I should be stressing over or fretting about but I might as well get the feeling out while it lasts.

On another topic, I’ve been using my time on school days very usefully. I’ve been getting very organized and keeping up with the news going on in the city/state/world. I’ve been keeping myself busy, well I hate that I have so much homework lately because it can get very stressful and tiring, but other than that, I’ve been reading A LOT and thinking positive thoughts. There are a few things I do need to get back to working on—which are things like working out again and getting in shape and learning how to cook. There just isn’t enough time in the day to do all that, seeing how much homework I have to do everyday. And its also harder because I don’t own a treadmill anymore. Hahahaha. So I just can’t go run or jog anymore when I need to cool down or distress. Like I haven’t even had time to fold my laundry that I did like on Sunday!

Isn’t that just terrible?

I want to go on a road trip for spring break! GOSH HURRY UP APRIL!! I want to go test for my license already!